NICU nurse

Its hard for me to let go right now of the things that I will be leaving. I know this isn't the end of my dreams, this is just the start of my new journey! My everyday dependence on God alone. I will never forget all the things I've learned, all the new things I've tried. I will miss inserting intravenous cannula to babies using gauge 26 or neoflon. I would be the one crying now because I wont be able to do that anymore. I would really want to be a pediatrician someday because of all the things I've seen. I care for those children hoping they would not give up. Hoping that they would fight for their lives. But they're just too fragile to stand up on their own. 

I would be saying goodbye to the place who had taught me alot, to be a professional, to be independent, mature, caring, loving, gentle person I could ever be. 

Sir Chief and Maya Wedding review

Honestly I'm not a fan of Sir Chief and Maya neither I'm watching every episode of their love story. But I caught a glimplse photo of their fairytale wedding. And I caught myself saying wow! That girl must be really special. 

We are living in this world where everything must be fast, everyone seems to be all in a hurry in terms of food, work, I myself is guilty for that, and also in love. I remember reading a verse in the bible saying do not awaken love until its the right time. Im not an exception for having that. We all have our puppy loves, first loves, short term and long term relationships that we all fall in that trap of hurrying everything especially for love. 

The world is telling me to have a boyfriend because of pressure without knowing its real purpose, knowing the end goal of being in a commitment.

Evwryone of us wants to have that fairytale wedding especially for ladies but we forget that we are special, we need respect, we need time, and for us to have that we must be treated with respect.

Everything that anyone gets too fast loses its likeness after a few days.

So ladies, why lower your standards? We dont aim to please people. We aim to please our Lord. And if He says there'ssomeone for us who give that magical wedding then better believe it. Our God keeps His promises to His daughters. And we're one of them! ;D

Handling Failures

There will come to a time where you will meet opportunities. And of course you would gladly grab it there and there without knowing if it was really for you or not. In my case I received an text message for an exam Ive been applying for. Its been a long time already since I started hoping that one day I could take the exam. That one day came to pass, but I didnt make it. I didnt literally pass the exams. I dont know how could I ever cope with that and accept that it is a closed door. I know that I needed to wait, wait for the right time, right place where God has designed me to be. I've already encountered lots of closed closed doors in life, but God promised that whenever God closes a door there will always be a door that opens. All we have to do is surrender everything we have in Him. Let him be in control of our life. And up until now Im waiting. I know there will be a season were I'll blossom as God's creation I could be the best God has created me to be. 

How to stop being a NOOB? For starters.

All people start from level 1 unless they are from a heritage of being a princess that they dont need to do the "hardwork" before stepping into a ladder of success. We all have our first encounters, our small mistakes whenever we get clumsy and forgetful about the right thing to do. In my field, I am responsible in dealing with real lives (every heartbeat counts). We dont get to have a chance to splurge with your salary coz whenever we start, we start small. For me, its much more worth-it to be at the bottom, we need to climb every time we need to achieve something, climb harder if the rock is much more harder. SACRIFICE alot for the better. There's some things I learn for the past few days as I start fresh and as NOOB! (for everyones information, it means newbie/beginner)

1. We dont get to complain

Complaining wont do any good. Instead we need to pause and assess the situation. If there is something/someone pissing us off. Its us who needs to back off. Never start a fight.

2. Accept and never curse anyone

It much more better to start your life with humility, even if to the point that we feel oppressed. Be thankful that we are receiving these challenges in life where we learn to persevere, we grow and mature.

3. Keep learning

In every moment that I was in my field, I get to do new things since Im just new. there are some things they havent taught me and we're still the one to be blamed. Its so unfair but we just need to learn from it and never repeat it.

4. Start your day fresh

Dont hold a grudge to anyone. I know its hard. But everyone needs forgiveness, even us. So why dont we start it? Be the start of change we wanted in our workplace.

5. Win-Lose

Remember that even if were new they dont own us, what we do is for sure could affect them. If we dont get angry, they'll see it and they'll know that we cant be manipulated and its them who gets affected.

And now after a few days, I can say that I had changed alot! And I can now show infront of them how good theyve trained me to be. Its a bad start but it would always end up good. We dont get to taste success sweetly if we are not the ones who prepared eagerly for the secret ingredients of life that we need to cook and learn before we have the finishing touch of parsley in a plate. 

Goodluck to all newbies like me! =)